June Full Moon Special
ONE MORE FOR GOOD LUCK
Bryan William Myers |
the rabbit chased the sun for spite
spellcheck became a speed bump for fast writers who can’t let go of the past if you’re growing a beard in the twilight of your own circumspection, leave your fingers twaddling along the keys luck is a set of dice dangling from a taxi driver’s rearview mirror on a gray and cloudy day the coffee gets sucked down into oblivion (which is your stomach) as it groans at your second-person personal noun bullshit here’s a brutal fact: California blondes never shut the hell up about a Bandaid they pulled off two weeks ago and that guy in the corner saying nothing knows more than everybody in town he stays quiet I envy him just like the frog in the night searching for flies there’s only so much you can stomach before you begin to feel ill and on that note always cover your ears in a foreign town when an American drops by. |
May New Moon Special
The Math of Love 1+1=1
Ziaul Moid Khan |
“I want to touch you,” I said, looking straight into Reshma’s bizarre bright eyes. In the last two weeks, this was the seventeenth time I’d asked my newly found love this question in the hope of a positive response. The last sixteen attempts of my maneuver had proved futile producing no concrete result. I was on fire, every atom of me crying desperately for her
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“You cannot,” she said, and giggled like an innocent baby. Her blood red lips exposed her extra white teeth. Whiter than what they show in the toothpaste ads during those short commercial horrible breaks on television.
She was one of those rare looking girls fit for modelling, cat walk, the showbiz world. Slander, but with heavy bosom. Her tits shook heavily up and down as she walked giving a clear hint that she did not wear a bra, wittingly to draw more than usual attention.
“Why?” I said, perplexed.
“That I can’t and won’t tell you.” She laughed again, giving me her usual response in mirth.
“Why not? Please…please Reshma, tell me!” I said pissed and pinched by her rude reply, “why do you always evade my questions, love?”
“Some other day, when the right winds will blow and bring around an opportune time,” Reshma said, staring at the full moon that was trying to evade the dark clouds which were advancing towards her.
I fell silent. Looked up where she was staring—at the glittering sky. It was a perfect night with a circled moon and all galaxies of stars, adding to the beauty of the vast expense of the cosmos. We sat at our usual place—a hummock where the Krishna River flowed fifty meters below our feet. More often than not we came here after our first meeting-by-chance. Here it was peaceful, and both of us loved this place—away from the hustle and bustle of the city-life.
Last night at this same place she’d asked me if I really loved her.
“Of course, I do,” I had said.
Then she’d said nothing. It seemed odd to me, but I did not nudge her lest she should be offended. A little short tempered was she. Truly I didn’t want to lose her. I could not afford it.
“Are you OK, Nawaz?” she chirped. And I was back from my flashback.
“Yes. Why are you asking?”
“I guess you’re hurt,” she said. Her lips seemed to be the untouched petals of some new blossoming rosebud. I want to kiss these coral lips, I wanted to say but did not. Sometimes it’s safe not to say something your heart’s crying to speak aloud.
“It’s not like that,” I said, looking sideways, “I think I have no right upon you.”
“May I ask you one thing?”
“Yes.”
“Which kind of right you want by the way? You mean physical!”
“All the rights,” I said with possession in my tone, “physical and platonic, both.”
“Of course, you’ll have, Nawaz,” she said with an I-know-your-intention-smile, “but give me some time. I can feel your feelings. But as for now—all the rights are reserved.”
“Take your time,” I said with sarcasm in my tone.
“Thanks,” she said, casually this time, with no apparent emotions in her words.
She was one of those rare looking girls fit for modelling, cat walk, the showbiz world. Slander, but with heavy bosom. Her tits shook heavily up and down as she walked giving a clear hint that she did not wear a bra, wittingly to draw more than usual attention.
“Why?” I said, perplexed.
“That I can’t and won’t tell you.” She laughed again, giving me her usual response in mirth.
“Why not? Please…please Reshma, tell me!” I said pissed and pinched by her rude reply, “why do you always evade my questions, love?”
“Some other day, when the right winds will blow and bring around an opportune time,” Reshma said, staring at the full moon that was trying to evade the dark clouds which were advancing towards her.
I fell silent. Looked up where she was staring—at the glittering sky. It was a perfect night with a circled moon and all galaxies of stars, adding to the beauty of the vast expense of the cosmos. We sat at our usual place—a hummock where the Krishna River flowed fifty meters below our feet. More often than not we came here after our first meeting-by-chance. Here it was peaceful, and both of us loved this place—away from the hustle and bustle of the city-life.
Last night at this same place she’d asked me if I really loved her.
“Of course, I do,” I had said.
Then she’d said nothing. It seemed odd to me, but I did not nudge her lest she should be offended. A little short tempered was she. Truly I didn’t want to lose her. I could not afford it.
“Are you OK, Nawaz?” she chirped. And I was back from my flashback.
“Yes. Why are you asking?”
“I guess you’re hurt,” she said. Her lips seemed to be the untouched petals of some new blossoming rosebud. I want to kiss these coral lips, I wanted to say but did not. Sometimes it’s safe not to say something your heart’s crying to speak aloud.
“It’s not like that,” I said, looking sideways, “I think I have no right upon you.”
“May I ask you one thing?”
“Yes.”
“Which kind of right you want by the way? You mean physical!”
“All the rights,” I said with possession in my tone, “physical and platonic, both.”
“Of course, you’ll have, Nawaz,” she said with an I-know-your-intention-smile, “but give me some time. I can feel your feelings. But as for now—all the rights are reserved.”
“Take your time,” I said with sarcasm in my tone.
“Thanks,” she said, casually this time, with no apparent emotions in her words.
May Full Moon Special
message in a bottle
Mackenzie Macrol |
the other day, i found a message in a bottle on the beach. water had seeped in from the cracks and holes in the cork meant to seal it, and the ink had been almost completely washed away. i consider the hundreds of thousands of miles of open ocean and foolishly think that i’ve never felt that kind of desperation—where your final call for help could very well drown with you. then, i remember the hands that held me back. surrounding me, deceiving me, their touches sustained pressure, like a dive in the open ocean. as a reward for my complacency, i was promised mercy below the surface. i was promised that the choppy waves above this still, open ocean were too dangerous for a breath of fresh air. i was promised that without the anchor they created, i would lose my direction. i was promised that i would more likely drown trying to swim against the current. so, I sank—saltwater filled my lungs and made a hundred thousand cuts, killing me from the inside out. when i eventually realized that i’d been made to drown, my first cries for help were hardly waterproof.
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April's 2nd New Moon Special
Tantric
William E. Heston |
In the kitchen,
Bodhidharma and I sit, A bucket of gas station fried chicken Split between us. “The world is at its end,” I tell him. “What do we do When we’ve lost our moral center? When without breath, the walls begin to hyperventilate In rhythm with our chests?” He eats, Crumbs tumbling down the front of his robe, Tea leaf eyelids hung In perpetual rest. He smiles at me. “What do we do When time unravels?” I ask. “When String Theory unwinds; When the stairs go Nowhere?” Still, he sits, Cross-legged on the linoleum, Slopping up the greasy skin Of a drumstick. "Bodhidharma, I'm tired, and, frankly, disgusted. The stench of grief hangs on the breath Of dead dreams That used to call to us. How am I supposed to answer them? How do YOU suppose I answer?" He rubs his single bare foot, Picks at the sandal on the other, And I wait with a festering sense of impatience. The evening sun disappears from my back window, Receding into the urban overgrowth Of the yard. “We’re at war!” I exclaim, “Why are we without territory this time? Why are we fighting Simply to maintain the line? How senseless can the ends get If there’s always a means to defend them? I need answers. I don’t trust you’re here. Who else Do I have left?” He drops the bone in the bucket. He grabs his staff to stand, The missing sandal hung atop. He turns to me And asks "Why?" |
April Full Moon Special
Nature's Embrace
Hasib Iftekhar |
(An ode to all the ones battling hopelessness)
The hustling in the trees, & carrying of the breeze, They do speak to me. And a whisper so droll, a bow to the bole, Wheezes out in silence: ‘Keep on keeping on, and don’t let go’. Rile across the skin, with an agony to the bone - I twitch and look up between all the moans, In a weary body and dragging head, I attempt to look farther, As my frame sinks further - Ninety-nine days of frozen still, in my lone infirmary bed. Isolation, ventilation, so dreadful is the prohibition! Smacked down I am by nauseating preconditions. In desolation, meandering thoughts are what I mime - to a reflection on the dusk window: my audience. Leave room out there in the pane for Melancholy, To stain the glass a gloomy purple. Mornings though, shines through hope, To a rancid soul that struggles to cope. Leaves swoosh in with songbirds chirping, Hops me back alive & retorting. And the sky, o my! Such cerulean frame. Dots of cotton – a broom there? Or button? From here to Serengeti, via the eternity, So grand & so big, puts a Renoir to shame. And I sense the vitals soar & goosebumps appear, Cracks turning fade and demons steer clear. On there a plateau, I lay flat and serene, As evened-out as I could ever be. The kindness amongst all things I feel, Stoking a bliss within me. |
April's 1st New Moon Special
Sponge-Grass
Mehreen Ahmed |
I stood on a patch of grass in the wetlands. I called it the sponge-grass. If one were to step on it, the sponge-grass patch, typically, sprung up and down under one’s feet movement, not submerge completely. This porous patch of the drenched grass, as resilient as it was held up some promise of stability, but not a whole lot.
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Standing on it, I also watched birds through handheld binoculars at a distance. Today, I watched something spectacular—the rare ospreys. I almost thought they had disappeared from this part of the globe—the wetlands. Almost, they never flew in here at all. But here they were, today, alive and well.
The ospreys helped my mood to turn around. I was in a downward trajectory of my writing career. My blues had reached its outer limits with all the rejections I’d received in one day. Doubts gnawed at me like termites. That perhaps I was deluding myself as a writer. Perhaps, I should leave writing with the more sophisticated minds, and be an astute reader in its stead—less stress and more enjoyment—win-win. This self-flagellation of despair was a trigger towards being a defeatist—a quitter, which I was not.
At a difficult moment like this, I had met him. A random guy whom I dared to choose online from my friend’s list. That I was so bored, I wanted to do something—anything. It had all started with a song. I had recorded a song and sent it through to him via messenger. The response was almost immediate. He sent me back one of his voice-recorded song clips, but deaf to the tune. By far, I least sang in tune. I thought this exchange was funny listening to his off-tune songs which he sang so much in earnest to impress me, taking the trouble of recording and sending them through.
The ospreys helped my mood to turn around. I was in a downward trajectory of my writing career. My blues had reached its outer limits with all the rejections I’d received in one day. Doubts gnawed at me like termites. That perhaps I was deluding myself as a writer. Perhaps, I should leave writing with the more sophisticated minds, and be an astute reader in its stead—less stress and more enjoyment—win-win. This self-flagellation of despair was a trigger towards being a defeatist—a quitter, which I was not.
At a difficult moment like this, I had met him. A random guy whom I dared to choose online from my friend’s list. That I was so bored, I wanted to do something—anything. It had all started with a song. I had recorded a song and sent it through to him via messenger. The response was almost immediate. He sent me back one of his voice-recorded song clips, but deaf to the tune. By far, I least sang in tune. I thought this exchange was funny listening to his off-tune songs which he sang so much in earnest to impress me, taking the trouble of recording and sending them through.
March Full Moon Special
Saturday Afternoon
Emily Moon |
Long ago summer
I looked out the window toward the shimmery turquoise water of Kailua Bay. Jefferson Airplane played in the background. A dreamy sunny Saturday, mynah birds on the path beneath spindly kiawe trees. pink and red hibiscus blooms down the lane. Swimmers in the water, waves rolling in. The graceful double yellow lines of the two-lane road curve around the bend toward Lanikai, trace the way around a rocky outcrop. I thought of a girl I knew. Incense in the air, mellow acid rock chords stretched out to match the mood. Saturday Afternoon... it’s a time for caring and a time for sharing Love Yes – I thought – yes |
March New Moon Special Feature
a thank you to my college baseball coach
Ty Brack |
Plans made.
Note ready. One of the last steps. I entered your office. Sat down. Ready with the lie. I can’t play anymore. Doctor says my knee injuries need time to heal. Don’t want to redshirt. Need to focus on school. Graduate on time. You spun around in your chair. Eyes reading. Body language inviting. Don’t cry. I sputtered the first lying words. Stopped. Mouth quivering. Eyes darting. Don’t cry. You leaned closer. You knew. You spoke. Don’t cry. I didn’t hear them, but I felt your words understood. I cried. Hard. Sucking for air hard. You said it was okay. To cry. To a man. It’d never been okay before. We hugged. I left. Confused. Alive. New plans made. Note disproven? One of the first steps. |
February Full Moon Special Feature
Lady Donahue
Tim Donahue |
My manhood’s underestimate
Of the times I go unseen My manhood of oldest testimate Cripples my moments in between. Lady Donahue, lady martyr, lady love me some more Bring me flowers underneath the stars, my manhood’s search for lore I, the knightly character I, the noble steed I, weathered into calloused immunity I'm a man. That’s something to believe. I am my manhood in desire I am all things others may conceive All things I’ve been wired to believe I am alone in mortal seeds I am my mother’s child I am what you want me to be. |
February New Moon Special Feature
Your Hair was like Moonlight
Chelsea Locke |
You’ve aged
since the night I’d cradled the phone to my ear and held your rosary in my hands. Every winter I pray for my hair to turn the same shade of moonlight as yours- like the moonlight that hung over your shoulders that night we’d braved the cold to watch the eclipse lengthen the shadows from the cypress trees to create the nothingness below our feet. Did you grasp at that darkness in the hopes that it’d save you? Did you know that time was handing you memories it never intended you to be able to keep? |
January Full Moon Special Feature
Sort Of
Sophie Kuhn
Sophie Kuhn
When he says you’re sort of pretty
Tell him he’s sort of right
Like how the sun is sort of kissing the horizon
And flowers sort of bloom in Spring
Unfurling their petals
Desperate to reach for the sky
Only to be plucked
By a pair of unfamiliar fingers
Delicate rosebuds become
Merely decorative things
Wilting in his presence
Sort of wasted on him
Tell him he’s sort of right
Like how the sun is sort of kissing the horizon
And flowers sort of bloom in Spring
Unfurling their petals
Desperate to reach for the sky
Only to be plucked
By a pair of unfamiliar fingers
Delicate rosebuds become
Merely decorative things
Wilting in his presence
Sort of wasted on him